Sunday, October 23, 2011

Fat and Happy? Not So Much.

I am unhealthy and out of shape.  That's not a shameless plea for hollow reassurance and ego stroking.  That is a proven fact. I discovered this fact this morning when I was helping to set up at church and my only job was to move two chairs about 20 feet and I couldn't lift a chair in each arm. It's not like these chairs were made of solid lead.  They were just normal chairs. I thought, "What the heck? I used to be so strong!" It wasn't even a year ago that I had been attending roller derby practices just to work out off skates and, in that time, I had seen my strength and my endurance growing.  But then I just quit going. For awhile, I would walk the trail near my house (about 4 miles) several times a week and I felt like I was making some great headway on my health.  But there was a bout of the flu and that ceased as well.  Ever since then, I've had no interest whatsoever in anything related to exercise or even eating healthy. I just full out QUIT.

Over the past couple of weeks, I've been feeling that old nagging in the back of my mind, telling me that I need to get back to healthy habits. But I have not had the drive or the will to lay out a serious plan.  I know how awesome I feel when I'm healthy. I know that working out doesn't require hours and hours a day...just some time...any time.  I know I don't need ANY fancy equipment to tone my muscles and I don't even have to go outside to do it (an excuse I often use to rationalize it away - the weather is bad, so I can't exercise today. Psshh...ever heard of jumping jacks or push-ups? Sheesh!) I know it's not hard to make healthier food choices and that every small choice makes a difference when it comes to diet. I know that my body doesn't feel great right now because I'm not taking care of it the way I should and that it also affects my emotions and my self-esteem. And here I sit...still not willing to do a thing about it.

What is it going to take to motivate me enough to get serious and change? How do I make the leap from thinking about it to actually doing something about it? Honestly, I don't know the answer to this yet. But it is clear that something needs to be done. Any good advice out there? I could use some encouragement on this.


  1. The only thing that made me start working out was that I was required to take a gym class this year for school. And now, I get so sore because of my fibromyalgia if I don't workout, I have to go.

  2. It's part of my day (well, it had been until my grandfather fell ill and then subsequently died...). And I 'schedule' it like I do hair appointments or whatever. You know me, I take classes. So, I look at the schedule from Rec Sports, find something I find interesting, and then it's on my 'to-do' list. And just like I wouldn't NOT show up to a hair appointment, unless there are CRAZY unforeseen circumstances that I cannot avoid, I go. And you see me check in and out on FB. It's done LATE. Sometimes, my class doesn't start until 9 or 9:30p. But I go. Because if I don't, I can look at my extended family, and I see what the ramifications are. I'm ALWAYS willing to go for a walk with you. You know where I live ;-)